Forget Regret...

Wed, 17 May 2006 04:40:47 GMT

I don't get people sometimes.

So yeah

Tue, 16 May 2006 04:54:55 GMT

I just made the last entry because that poem has a great amount of significance to me. I use to read it to my sister before she went to sleep when she was very young.
It is amazing how quickly life moves.

You start out, going to preschool and not letting go of your parent that drops you off because it is a new and different place, but then you love it as soon as the parent actually does leave. You have to beliefs: One, Mother knows best, and Two, dad is really superman in disguise.

You blink.
You are in lower school, only worrying about spelling and your "times tables", still having “recess” and girls have cooties.

Another blink.
Middle school is here, well, that is, you are there. It is the... well middle of your schooling. It is the transition from and to a lot of things. Girls all of a sudden don't have cooties. You have real homework to do. More obstacles are presented that seem to make your life more difficult. You begin arguing with your parents. But all the while, you still are having fun, because all you need to worry about is you.

Another blink.
High school. The hardest time of anyone’s adolescent life. It is when all of the drama takes place. The boyfriends, the girlfriends, the fights, the parents, the stress. Yet when you look back, you make some of the best memories and friends that you will ever make in your life. It is funny how when you are in high school, you want to graduate, yet on graduation day, you can't help but cry because it is over.

Another Blink.
This is my stop. I haven't blinked again yet. But it is college. It is the final transition into life itself. It is when most people meet the love of their life and/or decide what you are going to do with your life. And it is also the time that you say goodbye to your parents, and hello to a beginning of a life.

I'm not totally sure what comes next. But I will say, and i urge you to agree, I am going make sure whatever comes next, is damn good.

So...
Be your name Brenna or Bixby or Bray
Or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shay,
You're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So...get on your way!

Hmm

Tue, 16 May 2006 04:38:43 GMT

Congratulations!
Today is your day.
You're off to Great Places!
You're off and away!

You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
You're on your own. And you know what you know.
And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go.

You'll look up and down streets. Look 'em over with care.
About some you will say, "I don't choose to go there."
With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet,
you're too smart to go down any not-so-good street.

And you may not find any
you'll want to go down.
In that case, of course,
you'll head straight out of town.

It's opener there
in the wide open air.

Out there things can happen
and frequently do
to people as brainy
and footsy as you.

And when things start to happen,
don't worry. Don't stew.
Just go right along.
You'll start happening too.

OH!
THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!

You'll be on your way up!
You'll be seeing great sights!
You'll join the high fliers
who soar to high heights.

You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed.
You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you'll be the best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.

Except when you don't
Because, sometimes, you won't.

I'm sorry to say so
but, sadly, it's true
and Hang-ups
can happen to you.

You can get all hung up
in a prickle-ly perch.
And your gang will fly on.
You'll be left in a Lurch.

You'll come down from the Lurch
with an unpleasant bump.
And the chances are, then,
that you'll be in a Slump.

And when you're in a Slump,
you're not in for much fun.
Un-slumping yourself
is not easily done.

You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted. But mostly they're darked.
A place you could sprain both your elbow and chin!
Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in?
How much can you lose? How much can you win?

And IF you go in, should you turn left or right...
or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite?
Or go around back and sneak in from behind?
Simple it's not, I'm afraid you will find,
for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.

You can get so confused
that you'll start in to race
down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place...

...for people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go
or a bus to come, or a plane to go
or the mail to come, or the rain to go
or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow
or waiting around for a Yes or a No
or waiting for their hair to grow.
Everyone is just waiting.

Waiting for the fish to bite
or waiting for wind to fly a kite
or waiting around for Friday night
or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake
or a pot to boil, or a Better Break
or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants
or a wig with curls, or Another Chance.
Everyone is just waiting.

NO!
That's not for you!

Somehow you'll escape
all that waiting and staying.
You'll find the bright places
where Boom Bands are playing.

With banner flip-flapping,
once more you'll ride high!
Ready for anything under the sky.
Ready because you're that kind of a guy!

Oh, the places you'll go! There is fun to be done!
There are points to be scored. there are games to be won.
And the magical things you can do with that ball
will make you the winning-est winner of all.
Fame! You'll be famous as famous can be,
with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.

Except when they don't.
Because, sometimes, they won't.

I'm afraid that some times
you'll play lonely games too.
Games you can't win
'cause you'll play against you.

All Alone!
Whether you like it or not,
Alone will be something
you'll be quite a lot.

And when you're alone, there's a very good chance
you'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon,
that can scare you so much you won't want to go on.

But on you will go
though the weather be foul
On you will go
though your enemies prowl
On you will go
though the Hakken-Kraks howl
Onward up many
a frightening creek,
though your arms may get sore
and your sneakers may leak.

On and on you will hike
and I know you'll hike far
and face up to your problems
whatever they are.

You'll get mixed up, of course,
as you already know.
You'll get mixed up
with many strange birds as you go.
So be sure when you step.
Step with care and great tact
and remember that Life's
a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never mix up your right foot with your left.

And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed.)

KID, YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!

So...
be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray
or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea,
you're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So...get on your way!

Woops

Thu, 11 May 2006 01:10:56 GMT

I am officially done the spoken dialog of the Musical I am writing along with a few of the songs. In fact, one of the songs is completely done, music and all... although i'm sure it is going to change in some small way. It should be completely finished... soon.

Other than that, nothin' has changed, so i'm out.

END

Everything is good.

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 23:10:00 GMT

So this play that I am writing... It is actually really good. I'm getting good feedback on it, and wow... I emailed Stephen Schwartz about it and he actually emailed me back. I mean, it was simply amazing to see "You have new mail from Stephen Schwartz". Oh yeah, and I had to delete the plot summary from myspace and here because I don't have a copyright yet.

Anyways, all is well in the land of UF. Can't wait for the summer... well sort of. Not looking forward to classes, but it should be an interesting summer, nonetheless. That's it for now kiddies, tune in tomorrow, same bat time, same bat place for more of Aaron's Life!.... yeah I'm in a good mood.

END

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 19:57:18 GMT

**Holding Breath**

Hmm....

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 04:49:22 GMT

You know... I was going to make an entry about everything that has happened in the past five days, but its really not worth the time. So instead I will simply say the following:

My grandparents are not doing well, but they were happy to see my sister and I this weekend. I think, since they don't have a good relationship with my father or uncle, my sister and I are what keep them going. In other words, I need to visit them A LOT more.

Some things in life are bad
They can really make you mad
Other things just make you swear and curse.
When you're chewing on life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle
And this'll help things turn out for the best...

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

If life seems jolly rotten
There's something you've forgotten
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.
When you're feeling in the dumps
Don't be silly chumps
Just purse your lips and whistle - that's the thing.

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word
You must always face the curtain with a bow.
Forget about your sin - give the audience a grin
Enjoy it - it's your last chance anyhow.

So always look on the bright side of death
Just before you draw your terminal breath

Life's a piece of shit
When you look at it
Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true.
You'll see it's all a show
Keep 'em laughing as you go
Just remember that the last laugh is on you.

And always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the right side of life...
(Come on guys, cheer up!)
Always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the bright side of life...
(Worse things happen at sea, you know.)
Always look on the bright side of life...
(I mean - what have you got to lose?)
(You know, you come from nothing - you're going back to nothing.
What have you lost? Nothing!)
Always look on the right side of life...

A lot

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 07:12:32 GMT

There has been a lot going on lately....

For one, my grandparents are not doing so well... and my dad has indicated that they probably won't make it through the summer...

Stuff happened with friends of mine that was a bit upsetting, but its their choice, and whatever makes them both happy is fine with me. There are some things I do not understand but I really don't need to understand them. There are also some things that bother me, but again... I can't do anything about it. I just hope everything happens in the best way possible. I just wish there was more I could do.

Cool

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 19:56:48 GMT

Wow... My dad is awesome.

Actually

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 20:32:03 GMT

Scratch that last entry... I'm really pissed right now.

Wow

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 16:48:08 GMT

Kinda pissed right now.

jeez

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 04:56:00 GMT

I really need to get through this. So much is going on at once it's almost overwhelming... and yet, none of it is really bad. It's just... well just a lot all at once.

I think I'm going to be able to march this summer which is really good. I need to. Even with everything that the corps went through last year, it is really like a second home to me. I get away from everything, and all summer travel around the country, surrounded by people that love the same things as me, and perform. I never once didn't want to perform, and I will be in drumcorps until my age out year.

It really is the best experience ever.

New York City...

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 00:13:47 GMT

I got it:

When we don't have power, Rent.
When we are sad, Sante Fe.
When we are bored, Light My Candle,
and when one of us is mad, Another Day.

Definitly can't wait.

One week 5 days 'till EPCOT!!!!!

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 21:38:52 GMT

Jonathan Larson is my hero... No joke. He is my idol.

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 15:23:50 GMT

Fuck off.

eh

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 06:20:05 GMT

So i havent updated in a little bit... so bite me.

Nothing really has happened worth mentioning... Wicked has been the highlight of the last... oh month and a half for me.

Was suppose to go to some parties tonight but it was too much of a hassle. That and the party was going to have over 350 people... yeah, no thank you. So instead, saw "Firewall". Stars an old, but good, Harrison Ford. Kinda predictable, but still very well done.

wait i lied, there is something. Max and I are going to meet Jessica and her friend, Anne, at Disney in three weeks. IT'S GONNA BE GREAT! I cant wait... we can eat on a plate.... and... yeah i'm done. Rhyming doesnt suit me. But thats gonna be awesome. Something good to look forward to in the next month. That and spring break itself.

I'm also performing at the Auditions for the incoming UF freshman... That should be really fun. Yeah I bet you are bored reading this, so i'm done.

I am what I am
I am my own special creation.
So come take a look,
Give me the hook or the ovation.
It's my world that I want to take a little pride in,
My world, and it's not a place I have to hide in.
Life's not worth a damn,
'Til you can say, "Hey world, I am what I am."
I am what I am,
I don't want praise, I don't want pity.
I bang my own drum,
Some think it's noise, I think it's pretty.
And so what, if I love each feather and each spangle,
Why not try to see things from a different angle?
Your life is a sham 'til you can shout out loud
I am what I am!
I am what I am
And what I am needs no excuses.
I deal my own deck
Sometimes the ace, sometimes the deuces.
There's one life, and there's no return and no deposit;
One life, so it's time to open up your closet.
Life's not worth a damn 'til you can say,
"Hey world, I am what I am!"

This weekend was "Wicked"!

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 04:31:12 GMT

This weekend was the most amazing weekend I have had in a long time. Minus my mom going insane on me saturday, I haven't had that much fun, since before i moved to gainesville. Wicked was amazing, and what was even more amazing was that I saw it with my best friends. I have to admit, I was not sure if everything was going to work out this weekend... But it did. I saw it with Erica, who came down from UF with me, Kayla, and Chelsey.
Erica stayed with me at my dads house, and it was really awesome. I haven't laughed so much in a weekend in a while. We went swimming in my dad's pool, and went around miami for a day.

Saturday night:
We went to go pick up Kayla and Chelsey, (i'm not going to get into what my mom did... it was just too good of a weekend for her to ruin) and then went to Rotelli's and then to Wicked. We had AMAZING seats. The guy that told us where to go said "wow... those are perfect seats!" and then showed us. We were on the second level, the mezzanine, and almost dead center. The view was SPECTACULAR. The whole play was astounding, even though they had to switch the main role before it started for some reason, but the girl who did it was still just... well i can't begin to describe how amazing she was.

After the performance, we went to the stage door and got EVERY main actors autograph. We even took pictures with them. It was awesome. There were most that actually came out and talked to us. One asked me what I wanted to be, and i said "I am the future pupil of Stephen Swartz (the musical and lyrical writer of Wicked). He just doesn't know it yet." and he said "That is awesome, what is your name?" I said "Aaron Safer" and he said "Aaron Safer, i will see you in five years, when your play is being premiered."

Then on the way back to my car, we were in the elevator and a guy got in with us. I knew that he had been in the show, but before i could say anything he said "did you enjoy the show?" and we all said "YEAH!" and i asked "weren't you in it?" and he said "I played Boq" (who is one of the main characters) and we all whipped out our playbills and he signed them. He even talked to us about his career, and when i told him that I will be a broadway director, he said "never let go of that dream. When i was your age, it was my dream to be on broadway performing, and i never quit. And as you can very well see, i made it. And so can you." Then he got left the elevator.

A perfect ending to a perfect night. A night I will never, ever forget.

.... uh...

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 23:05:31 GMT

WOW.... I just found out I'm going to Israel for free at the end of march for two weeks with my best friend from miami... whom i havent seen in a LONG time... WOW...

Its gonna be awesome!

CRAZY

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 18:32:30 GMT

Recap of this weekend:

Friday night-
On the way back to boca on the bus from Gainesville, there was a traffic backup, that made up two hours late for getting home. It turned out a HUGE truck tipped over and exploded, along with a van... and when I say exploded, I mean there was nothing left of this truck except the frame. It was kind of scary to see such a wreck, and I hope not too many people were injured/killed.

Saturday-
AWESOME afternoon. I went to lunch with a group of friends and took many pictures and had LOTS of fun. It was WONDERFUL.
Saturday night sucked... my mom and I had one of our biggest arguments ever, but she tried to make up for it by taking me and my sister to The Melting Pot... I have to say, it was pretty damn good food.

Sunday-
My dad came and took me out for the day. I bought all that I needed for my dorm, and then went to the bus. The bus trip back was quick.

This weekend:
SATURDAY IS GONNA BE AWESOME!!!!! WOOOO HOOO!!!!! FIVE DAYS AWAY!!!!!

Simon Birch

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 16:16:21 GMT

Have you ever seen the movie called "Simon Birch"? Its amazing. Its about a boy born with dwarfism that is rejected by society. I am still in the middle of it so I don't know what happens in the end... but if i did i wouldn't say haha, you have to see it.

Anyways, I'M GOING HOME TODAY!!!! WOOOO HOOOO!!! I'm so excited. It is about freakin' time. For the past two weekends it didnt work out, but finally, today I will be on that bus going home. Tomorrow I get to see all my friends in Boca and even some from miami at the competition. This week was VERY hectic, but it all worked out in the end.
I met someone online, and have become really good friends with her recently. Her name is Jessica and she is going here next year. I FINALLY get to meet her next friday. I'm excited! Next year is gonna be awesome!

Life is good.

PS: ONE WEEK!!!!!!!! OH YEAH!!!!!

END.

Reflecting

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 18:04:31 GMT

I was thinking... What if everything you wanted came true?
Well the first thing I thought was, "WOW that would be wonderful..." I went into thinking how i want to move to NY, and how I want an easy going life, filled with good memories."

But then another thought occurred... If everything got what they wanted, and didn't have anything to try to improve... Life would be boring. Nothing would happen, nothing would go. No one would do... anything!
THe things that create challenge in life are the things that make people move forward, and get stronger as individuals. Without problems, there ARE NO solutions. Without cause there is no effect. It is wonderful to STRIVE for perfection... but perfection itself is an imperfection.

END

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 04:56:34 GMT

I'm tired of being alone.

I don't want a relationship...
I want someone whom I fall in love with, who returns the love, and eventually marry. But that is not going to happen any time soon.

But it sure is nice to dream.

End.

Wow

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 17:52:47 GMT

So I am officially obsessed with the show Smallville... well to be more specific, the actor who plays Lois Lane, Erica Durance. She is going to be my future wife... she just doesn't know it yet... (yeah right, i wish!). Anyways, a brand new episode is on tonight. Should be good!

This weekend I have a lot that needs to be done. On saturday I am going to be playing the same piece over and over so that multiple conductors can practice conducting the concert band... fun... NOT. On sunday, I am performing in the University Auditorium for a "Friends of Music" convention. Basically, these are the people who make it possible for students to get the scholarships that allow them and entice them to go to different schools... So no pressure... These are just the people paying me to be a student here. It will be okay though, I'm excited.

PS: TWO WEEKS AND ONE DAY!!!

END

Quick

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 19:28:46 GMT

So Anthony Rapp is coming to UF tonight to do a speech about his new book. It's gonna be fun. After, he is signing stuff and taking pictures. Fun stuff.

I'm going to perform this weekend in the University Auditorium... by myself. I'm kind of nervous, but excited. I try to make my nervousness turn into adrenaline. It will be fun.

Short entry!

PS: TWO WEEKS AND TWO DAYS!!!!!!!

END

Someone up there hates me

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 01:32:43 GMT

So i was suppose to go home today. I was going to see the premiere night competition tomorrow... But i cant. The place that i bought the bus ticket to get home told me to be at the bus at 5. But really, it left at 4:30. They refunded my ticket, but that doesnt change the fact that I am now missing the competition. My mom blamed me, and said that I am too irresponsible and missed the bus because I wasnt there on time... Even though they told me the wrong time... Yeah make some sense out of that. She also said that i didnt WANT to come home... WTF?! I was looking forward to come home all DAMN WEEK!........ ::deeeeeep breath::....

I really think someone up there hates me... or at least hates me this week.

I'm sorry to everyone who wanted me to be there tomorrow, i hope you all have a great performance and a great time.
I'll be going home next weekend.

END